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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Human longing is like a waterfall and Aislynn's flowed with a power I have not seen in a millenia. Her longing aches inside me, a faraway ache but one which still surges with the power of rushing water cascading through the air. Between the droplets of memories inside of me and her journal, I am begining to piece together how this tortured soul lived her brief life.
There was a man, of that I am sure. A man who came into her life and bathed her heart and soul with the warm spring waters of love and then struck her like an uncaring wave tosses a wayward ship before submerging her into the depths of the darkest ocean.
To heal her pain, Aislynn opened her heart to the arts. Those few who she had not completly pushed from her life saw an unearthly beauty in her paintings, heard the voices of angels in her songs and cherished the soul searching depths of her poetry. Aislynn did not see those things. Everytime she picked up the brush to paint, every time she played her piano, every poem she scribbled down in her water stained leather journal only reminded her of all that she had lost and all that her heart longed to have once again. She only saw her pain in her art, and in time she began to see the uncomfortable truths of how dark and lonely the world outside her tiny apartment really was. She saw what no human was suppossed to see, she the world spiralling out of control and realised humanity was powerless to stop it on their own. That was the day she first reached out to me.
more to come later...
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11:07 a.m.
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
I am going to start this post off by apologizing if some or all of it doesn't make any sense. I just took my liquid codeine and I am feeling a little light headed. Well I already missed my self imposed deadline of a post a week at the least. There was a good reason though. I started my job on monday. For those who don't know I am working at the Windsor Essex Children's Rehabilitation Centre. I am working as a camp counsellor in their day camp for children who are not able to attend to regular camps because of a physical or mental/cognitive disablity. It is hard work, I have to feed and toilet the kids who can't do it themselves. But it is also a lot of fun, seeing the smiles on the kids faces and knowing they are getting to experience something that without programs like this they would never be able to do. The pay is crap, since its a government funded program that allows the centre to hire counsellor but the experience is invaluable.
Of course, because things were starting to go my way, I had to go and get sick again. A visit to the hospital on friday has confirmed that I have yet another chest infection. That's my fifth one since February. So whether or not I will be able to continue at work is up in the air at this point, since I am contagious. If it was up to me I would tough it out, but we have to think of the children first.
I also have been neglecting visiting my faithful paladin steed, but for once thats not such a bad thing. She could really use the time to heal an injury she had when I bought her, and I am sure she is happy just hanging out with her little pony friend. My goal is to take her in the Harrow fall fair in september, just for fun.
Not going to the barn has its downsides though, as I am suppossed to be teaching a really sweet little boy a lesson a week as learning from his mother is not going so well to say the least. The kid is crazy about Roman war tactics, jousting, dragons and RPG computer games. So he and Kevin talk for hours together. Again its not great pay, but I get the sense of doing something nice for someone who is need. It makes the paladin in me happy.
Kodiak our puppy is growing quickly. He is 12 weeks old and already weighs in at 30lbs (at the last weighing, but I know he's put on some more weight). He's really a great dog. He is against literacy, he hates anyone reading aloud, and he is noise police, if you make weird sounds or speak in an accent he will howl his little head off.
Don's three legged kitten is doing fairly well, he needs to get out of Don's room a little bit more though. Him and Kody have a bit of a rocky relationship, mostly because people are quick to scoop the cat up and scold Kody for playing with him. I am of the school of thought that if it hurt the cat, the cat would howl and scratch at Kody or take off. If the cat sits there and lets Kody gingerly mouth his tail, the cat can't care that much. But everyone is afraid the three legged cat can't take care of himself. I think the scar on Kodiak's nose from a cat scratch is evidence enough that the cat can and will defend himself when necessary.
I am going to finish off this post by posting some pictures of Erin and I's great adventure to Florida in May. Erin that was seriously some fun times and we will definatly have to do it again. For more pictures, visit my webshots site. You can find the link in my link sections (imagine that)
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9:52 p.m.
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Welcome to my new blog. I felt a need for a change but that doesn't mean I want to forget where I have come from. My old blog will still remain up for anyone who wants to take a ride down memory lane. I am going to try and update this new blog more regularly, if not everyday than at the very least once a week.
So whats new in my life seems to be a common question asked of me. I am feeling and doing a lot better. I still have some pretty bad days, but nothing like March or April, those were some pretty bad months. Money is super tight but it looks like there is light at the end of the tunnel as both Kevin and I have gotten jobs. This means no more summer classes for me, which actually makes me pretty sad.
For those who don't know, The Crowned Rider of the Unconquered Sun is my Eclipse caste solar in Kevin's south game, and also is my alter ego. Ryiah is the most closely based off me character I have ever played. She is everything I wish I could be and more. I am still the paladin deep down inside, but consider this persona the paladin version 2.0
So you may ask, what does the Crowned Rider quest for? She quests for Truth, Beauty, Freedom and Love. She strives to help give everyone a choice, and a voice. She is honest, caring and full of optimism and faith. That is how I want to live my own life.
I hope everyone enjoys the new blog,
Lynz
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12:48 a.m.
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